April 30th

I am not really sure how it got to be April 30, 2013.  Did that sneak up on anybody else?  I mean April has come and gone, I feel, literally in the blink of an eye.  Sometimes, do you feel that life is just passing you by?  I have felt like that sometimes lately, like I am just going through the motions at times: get-up, workout, get kids ready, school drop off, work, home, dinner, bath, books and bedtime.  Rinse and repeat.  I'll be honest, sometimes, I don't even rinse. 

I have even wondered am I enjoying life enough, the kids enough, Steve enough?  I suppose that everybody feels that way now and again.  I just don't want to wake up one day and realize the kids have moved out and I did not enjoy them enough.  I mean, I realize that raising kids is not all puppy dogs and rainbows and that there are going to be times that they make me want to tear my hair out because parenting is HARD stuff.  The in between times though, the times when we are all cohabiting peacefully or outside playing in the yard - do I recognize how wonderful those times are, do I relish them enough, have I committed them to memory?  Sometimes, I just don't know.  Sometimes my mind is in too many other places. 

What I can say is I am a work in progress...and I pray daily for grace, peace of mind and guidance from God our Savior.